A Miracle

I think it’s time to let everyone know…We’re PREGNANT!

The road to get pregnant and the road to stay pregnant have not been easy! Here’s how we found out.

After years of trying multiple infertility treatments Noah and I decided to adopt. We were so excited and about to pay our deposit when I started to feel really sick. Of course I had the “flu” and couldn’t move for about 5 days in a row. I decided to go to the doctors and make sure nothing was majorly wrong. The first thing the doctor says, “we should probably do a pregnancy test” I immediately refused to do a test because I told myself I will not take another test as long as I live! I was serious. The doctor told me I didn’t have to take one so he did other blood work which came back normal and sent me on my way.

The next day was even worse. Another day of puking about 15-20 times and I could barely move. I call my sister to tell her I think I’m going to die! She gets really forceful and tells me to take a pregnancy test just to rule out morning sickness. In the back of my mind I’m thinking, “doesn’t everyone know we’re not doing infertility treatments anymore and we’re adopting..I can’t get pregnant”. Anyway, I take a test just to show my sister she was wrong. Well the test said, “PREGNANT”. I immediately called my doctor to tell him that I just had a false positive on a pregnancy test and I think something is wrong. My doctor tells me to come to the hospital to have more blood work done and to get a blood pregnancy test.

My sweet sister picks me up to take me to the hospital (FYI – I still haven’t called Noah or told him anything yet. I refused to think I was pregnant). I get all the blood work done and in 2 hours I get a call from the hospital saying congrats nothing is wrong with me but they’re 100 percent positive I’m pregnant. Nope I don’t believe them….I decided to run to the local Walgreens and buy 3 different pregnancy test. I took them all at home and they all said POSITIVE.

I still have not called Noah. I sat in our bathroom staring at all the test wondering how this happened. We weren’t doing any infertility treatments? How could I just get pregnant out of the blue after we’ve been trying for so long…this doesn’t make sense? I started to cry because I was pregnant and I felt so miserable.
Noah came home from work and I wanted to surprise him. On one of our guest bedrooms I put the sign “Nursery”. He looked at it and looked at me and didn’t get it at first. At this point in our life we had written off the possibility of me getting pregnant. And we are/were happy. This did not define us and Noah and I have a lot of fun together, we’re always laughing. Anyway, Noah said very quietly, “Are you pregnant”? I started to cry and said, “Yup”. Then we stared at each other for about 10 minutes and sat on the stairs to take in this huge change. We couldn’t believe it…could this really be true?

Now the fun begins. I’m not just sick from this pregnancy I’m near death. I was puking more times in a day then I could count. I lost 10 pounds in 1 week and currently I’ve lost a total of 17 pounds. That means I’m currently 14 weeks pregnant and only weighing in at 103 pounds…I look disgusting.

I receive IV’s everyday through a permanent IV that’s in my arm. I receive nausea medication every 4 hours through my IV and most days I feel like I’m going to die. I now understand why I had to wait so long to get pregnant. I had to REALLY want this baby in order to withstand this extreme nausea. Most days I feel like I’m starving. I want to eat a big steak so bad I can taste it in my mouth. I dream of the day where I get to grab a water and drink it in one big gulp.

Even as I write this I feel horrible but I want everyone to know we feel so lucky. Noah and I can’t believe this is happening to us and that we get to bring a little one into the world. I believe in miracles and I truly believe this is a miracle. The Lord definitely had a hand in this and we know this child is suppose to be in our family.